I'm Pretty Sure I Fell In Love Tonight.

So a lot of stuff has happened since I last posted.
I'm in Year 12 now, single, and reasonably happy.
This year I'm doing Literature, Theatre Studies, Italian, Further Maths and Text and Traditions. So far, I've been particularly enjoying Theatre and Literature...maybe because in both of them we happen to be analysing a play.
I'm getting into the whole Theatre scene too. I just got home from seeing Woyzeck at the Malthouse Theatre. It was amazing. Talk about an assault on the senses.
It was a really full on performance...more of an ensemble, considering that everyone was onstage for the majority of the performance. I loved the music; some of the songs I would even put on my Ipod if I could find them. The lighting was fantastic, the set truly spectacular. Overall, it was an amazing production.
And I'm pretty sure I fell in love with Hamish Michael when he started singing. What an amazing voice. I've been trying to look him up, but I can't find anything :(
I'll keep searching.

At the moment, I would be listening to my Ipod and In Fiction just came on. They are now one of my favourite bands. I got their cd for Christmas and I've been listening to them soooo much. At one point during the holidays, I lost my Ipod so I relied on cds in my stereo to keep me going. And In Fiction just seemed to work.

I was thinking today and I realised that only two things in life are definite. That you were born, and that you will die. We all think our family will always be there for us, that our friends would never desert us, but can we ever be sure? I'm not being pessimistic - I hate it when people shoot me down just because I'm expressing my view.

I'm pretty sure that none of my friends understand me. I feel like I'm in a parallel universe, that I'm on a different wavelength to them. I don't understand them, and they don't understand me. It's really depressing now when I think about it.

I hate it when I will say something and they just call me stupid, or completely shoot me down. I'm not standing for it anymore. I've put up with so much crap. No one knows what lengths I've gone to to be there for my friends. And frankly, I'm sick of the bullshit. I won't let anyone mess with me anymore. You gonna be an arsehole? Fine; just don't be one to me.

So that's my little rant for tonight.
I was kinda all over the place. But that's how I'm feeling right now, so maybe it fits.

Down and out.

Study? I don't understand what you're trying to say.

Well, I am meant to be studying right now, and probably should go do my General B Maths book, but I haven't posted in a while and I thought I might as well.

To tell you the truth, I don't think anyone even follows this blog. It's really for my own benefit.

Well, it's exam week at the moment, and I feel like I'm on holidays. No-one can be bothered studying, it's so bad. It's been such a full-on year. I'm scared to think what year 12 will be like.

I took a few photos on the last day of year 11 classes. Ok, that might be an understatement. I took A LOT of photos and about a 30 videos. During class too.

Here's a particular favourite:




You can't see me in it really,, but I'm the one holding the Coke Zero bottle. I look at this photo and think: these are my friends and they are beautiful. We've had so many problems this year with the rest of our group that decided to split off from us, but now we have our own group and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Friendship is a most peculiar thing. It is a lot like love in the way that you would basically do anything for your friends. One of my best friends, who I've known since Year 7 when fate put us in the same classs, once told me that she would throw herself in front of a moving car to save me. I was so touched, I didn't know what to say.

My friends really do mean the world to me. I would not have a clue what I'd do without them. I'd probably go insane. I think the two most important things you need in life are friendship and love. Because they are what get you through.

Whatever It Takes I'll Be There

Ok, so I just got off the phone.
Conversation didn't last very long. Not much to say.
Mark and I have now been going out for 1 year and 4 months. Yes, it is a long time.
A very long time.
Some people like to tease me - us - and say that we're practically married. Not mentioning anyone...*cough* Monica *cough*....
But we're really not.
Obviously.
We're 17.

You know, it just occurred to me that I made a link to this blog on my myspace and it could be possible that someone I know will read this. Oh, perfect.

Hmm...you know, I should probably get to bed.
I always say that. But then I get distracted.
I think I may have something wrong with me.
I remember random things, yet not other things.
It might be the alcohol?
Mmmm...probably.
I used to have the memory of an elephant.
Now, I have one like a goldfish.

"Cause I see the light surrounding you.
So don't be afraid of something new"

Geez that's an old song.
Ahhh so meaningful though.

Well, I started writing today again.
I got kinda expired from this book I finished reading.
It's called Joe and Cat Set The Story Straight.
It's a tandem story.
And was a very interesting read. Anyway, it got me back into writing the story I'm writing at the moment. I don't really know where this story is heading, but it'll basically just take me where it takes me.
I can never plan stories, because what's happening around me usually influences what happens in the story. I kinda have a direction with this one, but there's still a lot I need to sort out.

Yeah, anyway.
Hmm I'll post my prologue.

I stare up at the ceiling. It is utterly blank. A dark expanse of nothing. I imagine it to be my future – yet I figure the ceiling is a bit brighter than that. A car whizzes past my window, and, just for a millisecond, I see the texture of the ceiling; the bumps and bubbles of a bad paint job, a crack of time, splodges and marks from the unknown pasts. In that instant – in that beam of light – I witness hope. That perhaps my future had something in store for me after all. The light passes, and the big room is cloaked in thick darkness once again.
Maybe I imagined it, but that’s when things started changing for me; on that dark, moonless night in November.
I closed my eyes and attempted sleep.

Ok, this is my final post for today.
ciao baby.

Like The Angel You Are

So.
Yesterday and today I basically did nothing but go on the internet and update my Get Behind Victorian Bands myspace. Shit it's a lot of work.
Yesterday I categorized all the bands into genres. All 150 of them. It was intense work.
Now, I'm just updating my own myspace.
I'm gonna put this photo up.


Its from our last drama lesson. Oh, it was so sad.
I'm gonna miss them all so much.

I'm also gonna put this photo up.



I just think it's cool.

Yeah, I'm really bored.
I might ring Mark.

I'm going shopping with my friend Chiara tomorrow for his birthday present. We're gonna check out the New-and-Improved Westfield. Should be fun.
Yeah, anyway. I'm gonna go ring Mark.

I leave you with this last image.



ciao darling.

Let's Start At the Very Beginning...A Very Good Place To Start

hey there!

what's cracking? So I decided to create a blog...you know, just for the hell of it. Why yes, I also happen to be a Teenage Bimbo. It's a part of me I just cannot ignore.

So anyway, I'm just going to go straight into my life. Basically. You'll get to know me later.

Today, Friday the 31st of October. Halloween. Something I only realised about 10 minutes ago. I'm not from America, so we don't celebrate Halloween too much. Would've loved to go trick-or-treating tonight, but all my friends are extremely busy with studying for their year 12 exam.

I actually had my VCE (what we call our final years of schooling - year 11 and 12) exam. I did VCE drama as a year 11 this year. It could possibly be the hardest subject ever. Harder than those maths and science ones. The hardest. So anyway, I had my written exam today. Probably failed but I don't really care because it's only 25% of a subject that will probably contribute to 10% of my final study score. So I'm pretty happy it's over.

But seriously, people underestimate drama.
Is there any other subject where you have to work in a group of approximately 3 to 5 people to create a non-naturalistic ensemble using a topic (example: The Pursuit of Beauty) and 5 stimuli? No, there's not. And that's not even it. Is there any other subject where, on your own, you have to choose from a variety of 10 solo stimuli and create a solo performance based on that structure? That goes for 7 minutes? If you want to know more about VCE drama, just ask; I could literally rave about it all day.

So anyway, I was really suprised (and so were the other 20 something drama girls) because the second stimulus in the exam that we had to create ideas for a ensemble from related like TOTALLY to our actual ensemble topic! It was called Extreme Fashion (our topic was The Pursuit of Beauty) and the stimulus even included pictures that were extreme fashion methods like corsets and those rings they put around their necks in Africa! It was so funny. Basically everyone was ready to piss themself laughing during reading time. So that was like really awesome because everyone basically chose a character from their ensemble and talked about that.

Then after my exam, my boyfriend came over for a bit to talk to me and see how I went. I also went on facebook and some of my best friends - Sabina and Annie - commented me and asked how it went. Another one of my best friends - Ciara - also rang me and we chatted for a while about drama and biology - she's got her VCE biology exam on monday.

So anyway, I'm basically done here. Knowing me, I'll probably post a blog tomorrow. Have nothing else to do now I'm finished with drama!

So, until then.

Au revoir.